What you expect?

im drown in fear, hoping for a helping hand,
but every single day i notice no one really care.
im as happy as you know it,
atleast thats how i made you feel.
i got my head down,
no one noticing my frown.
pray to god for a new chapter,
but its not what im after
and even after,
i get injured from all the disaster.
lovely,
i cant see the reason im lyk this.
you put me down you pull me up,
you drop me just to see me bleed.
you dont feel it but its painful.
youre the cause of my depression.

if i died, would you fucking stop and care about me? would you shed a tear everytime you missed a sign of my depression? i wanna show it, but i cant.

I'm not FUCKING complaining, i'm just making things complicating. :)